Confusion…
Why are you talking to me?
Why doesn’t it hurt?
Why are you ruining my plans?
Why are you saving me?
How are you still saving me?
You have no business saving me
And yet you are
Despite everything,
You are.
Why?
How?
I don’t understand.
How did you know?
And why am I mad at you?
Why did I hurt you?
I don’t mean to
I’m surprised
And shocked
And confused.
Why are you talking to me?
You’re not hurting me
Why not?
Why are you apologizing?
You’re apologizing
For my bad behavior,
My stupidity
My stubbornness
My anger.
My feelings are not your responsibility
And I do not wish them to be.
They are mine and mine alone
They are my hell
And my salvation,
They have nothing to do with you
And you have no reason to apologize.
Perhaps you should apologize for talking to me
For ruining my plans
For saving me yet again.
Perhaps you should apologize for all the things you’ve done
And never even known the good in them
Maybe you should be sorry for apologizing
And then realize that all life’s actions
Will work out one way or another
And that they follow a plan.
In that plan we have a path that we follow
And we choose to go down it.
So apologize for stopping me
And making me think
Allowing me to take a longer path.
I don’t believe you should apologize
There is nothing to be sorry for
In friendship.
Thank you.
Thank you for talking me
For ruining my plans
For stopping me
For confusing me
And saving me
Again.
You continue to despite all you say
You need to apologize for.
It is not you who needs to apologize
It is I who needs to say thank you.
So thank you for everything
Thank you for talking to me.